Such a smoke in the soul – Thomas Brooks

A man may have true grace and yet lack assurance, and this may arise from that smoke and clouds, those fears and doubts which corruption raises in the soul. Just so, that the soul cannot see those excellent graces which otherwise might be discerned. Though there may be many precious gems and jewels in the house, yet the smoke may hinder a man from seeing them sparkle and shine. So though there may be many precious graces in the souls of saints, yet corruption may raise such a dust, such a smoke in the soul, that the soul is not able to see them in the beauty and glory.

The well of water was near Hagar but she saw it not until her eyes were opened by the Lord, Gen. 21:19-20. So grace is near the soul, yes, in the soul sometimes, and yet the soul does not see it, until God opens the eye and shows it. “The Lord was in this place,” says Jacob, “and I knew it not.” So many a precious soul may say, grace was in my heart, and I knew it not, I saw it not.