The Missionary watching - Chambers, Oswald

Watch with me. Matthew 26:38

Watch with mewith no private point of view of your own at all, but watch entirely with me. In the early stages we do not watch with jesus, we watch for him. We do not watch with him through the revelation of the bible; in the circumstances of our lives. Our lord is trying to introduce us to identifi- cation with himself in a particular gethsemane, and we will not go; we sayno, lord, i cannot see the meaning of this, it is bitter. How can we possibly watch with someone who is inscrutable? How are we going to understand jesus sufficiently to watch with him in his gethsemane, when we do not know even what his suffering is for? We do not know how to watch with him; we are only used to the idea of jesus watching with us. The disciples loved jesus christ to the limit of their natural capacity, but they did not understand what he was after. In the garden of gethsemane they slept for their own sorrow and at the end of three years of the closest intimacy they all forsook him, and fled. They were all filled with the holy ghostthe same they, but something wonderful has happened in between, viz. , our lords death and resurrection and ascension, and the disciples have been invaded by the holy spirit. Our lord had said ye shall receive power after that the holy ghost is come upon you, and this meant that they learned to watch with him all the rest of their lives.